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my roommate snores cannot get sleep medication making me sick things not going well I ask for a new room I’m told: ” ain’t…
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Anxiety-Depressive Disorder | A Photographer’s Story
Photographer Sergei Stroitelev is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this photo essay. From the project ‘Blue Dot’. To see Sergei’s body of work,…
When It Comes | Panic Attacks
Not sure when it hits I’m calm Then earthquake comes I sit Shake Wait Shake When will it end? Sometimes goes for hours Occasionally days…
Getting Used To It
Today Had a discussion with the PA Leave in five more days New medicine seems okay Quiet in the lockup When I came in, it…
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Fire burns Anxiety churns Please Help me Escape reality Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 More On Peeling OFF Mental Illness HERE …
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Tangled in a web I try to flee from my demons I ask myself “Am I drifting into insanity?” Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…
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3AM Wake up soaking wet 4 days in a row Shivering Medication side effect Causing me to lose more weight Copyright© Edge of…
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Changing hospital gown Looking in mirror I see a skeleton Lost over 40 lbs Neck bones stick out Still eating very little Copyright© Edge…
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The circle spins Nothing helps I sit rotting away in the pit Rats nibbling at my flesh Exposing Depression Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…
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Panic attacks Would come and go I thought this was my life Until Tangled wires in the brain Short circuited Now Constant Shakes Permanently Embedded…
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Medication Time Do not be late Stand in line Same time Everyday 9 am 9 pm Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 …
My Unrecognizable Reflection
Looking into the mirror I see a face Ravaged by illness The happy go lucky attitude gone Unhappiness looks back Cannot force a smile Is…
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This is the place for rejects The scum of society Nobody going to hold your hand here Keep head down Do as told Ask for…
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Sometimes It becomes so dam hard The weight Sinks me into the ground Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 More On Peeling…
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It takes a tremendous amount of endurance to live with mental illness. Others see weakness, but they are too blind to appreciate the tenacity.…
Giving In For Better Quality Of life
He suffered 5-6 panic attacks a day For over 50 years Nervous system worn out He capitulated and went on medication Copyright©…
Locked In
This time the depression Holds me tight Like a vice Alone Again Tonight I continue to fight Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 …
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Stuck with glue Thoughts will not move What can I do? Just suffer Wait for time to pass Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021…
Unstoppable
I cry Sometimes I can flood the driest desert with my tears It feels good to cry It feels bad when I cry Why…
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I’m waiting patiently Here it is coming around again I reach out to catch No It passes me by Laughing all the way Another missed…
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My brain will not comply Trying desperately to push out thoughts Not succeeding It is a war Negative thinking again wins the battle Another awful…
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Flood gates open Anxiety sucks the happiness from me The pain pushes all my emotion buttons Medication not working I suffer alone No place…
The Mentally Ill & Society
I’m a human being Just because I’m mentally ill Does not give society the right to Abuse Humiliate Control Or Take away my dignity …
Relief. Where Is It?
I do not think I will ever feel right My nervous system is fried Each day the same Living in pain Sitting in bed Praying…
Juggling Thoughts
Today I remember yesterday One after another Thoughts Pop up Unfortunately Today I also have the reality of the struggle Controlling my depression Copyright©…
Cannot STOP
Fear Causes anxiety Anxiety Creates More Fear How do I get off This Rollercoaster? Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 Edge of…
Inertia
On a mental lockup floor 24×7 Everything based on routine Isolated from outside world No worries No responsibilities Just follow the rules Take twice a…
Playing With Air
Deep long breaths Inhale Exhale Desperately Trying To release air From the anxiety balloon Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 Edge of…
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I can feel the load Mind no longer guides Nervous system All circuit overloaded Psychological Trauma Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 …
Doing My Best
I try to think positive But it is difficult when Day after day Acid rain comes down Burning the smile off my face Copyright©…
Digging
Using a Jack hammer I worked Through that night Chipping away Searching for The cure Hidden In my primitive mind Copyright© Edge of Humanity…
Smother
Alone The depression beast wraps It sides around a thick dark cloud Quickly I’m overwhelmed with emotions Unable to move from my chair Paralyzed The…
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Her anxiety Always Leads Her To believe A Problem will become A Complete disaster Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020 More On Peeling…
Picking Only Ripe Fruit
Nibbling On Asian History & Philosophy Series Source: Taoist Yoga Alchemy & Immortality By: LU K’UAN YU (Charles Luk) “Let all thought come…
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glass shatters on tile floor I crunch down my head into the pillow on the bed heavy cry competing with strongest rain coming down from…
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I sit watch listen to heavy rainfall next day sun reappears work on tan sadness slips away through fingers on my hands Copyright©…
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catching butterflies warm spring morning sunny sky she began to cry Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020 If my poetry helped, entertained, or…
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slippery stepping stones rats feast on happiness weeds of sadness Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2019 If my poetry helped or entertained…
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Sitting on park bench Eating cold potato Topped with salt Wondering How many failures my fault? Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2019 If…
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Engulfed by pain Mummified Shackled with chains All walked away Dinner plates Fall On Kitchen floor Four Locks Front & back doors Ceiling fans Covered with…
Depression
Swimming in a lake The weeds strangle my body Trying to break free I’m only pulled down deeper into the opaque water Copyright© Edge…
The Search For Satisfaction & The American Dream
Photographer Tania Franco Klein is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this photo essay. From her project ‘Our Life In The Shadows‘. To see…
Depicting Depression – Artist Exposé
This photography essay was submitted to Edge of Humanity Magazine by Photographer Aleksandra Stone. Click on any image to see Aleksandra’s gallery of self-portraits.…