Lest we forget
After a 20-year absence, I revisited Hiroshima and Nagasaki this June. I had learned about the atomic bombs in Hiroshima & Nagasaki and stories of the survivors as a part of the Peace Education curriculum. As school children, we were often given literature,some quite graphic, about the atomic bombs survivors. With the passage of time, there are fewer and fewer survivors who could share their stories and impart their wisdom. I felt this to be one of the last opportunities that would be afforded to me to learn, document and share their life stories.
Atomic Bomb in Hiroshima
On August 6, 1945 at 8:15AM the world’s first atomic bomb “Little Boy” was dropped in downtown Hiroshima City, Hiroshima, Japan. It was said to be a beautiful clear blue-sky day. Little Boy exploded about 600 meters above ground and created diameter of approximately 280 meters light spheres whose center reached 1000000 Celsius. Ground around ground zero reached approx. 3000-4000 Celsius within a moment. The population of Hiroshima at that time was approx. 350000. By the end of December of the same year, 140000 had died.
Atomic Bomb in Nagasaki
On August 9, 1945 at 11:02 AM. The atomic bomb called “Fat boy” was dropped at Uragami district in Nagasaki City, Nagasaki, Japan. It was three days after the atomic bomb in Hiroshima. The population of Nagasaki at that time was approximately 240000. By the end of December of the same year, 73844 had died.
Tamiko was 7 years old. She was a first grade elementary school student. She was at Hiroshima Ujima Elementary School, when the bomb exploded. She said that majority of her school students had been evacuated to their relatives in countryside. But the first and second grade students were excluded from the evacuation to stay with their immediate families. She just arrived to her classroom that morning. There were about 10 students in the classroom. She got to her seat, took of her safety hat off, sat down and had just opened a book.
“A beam of strong light came in from northern window, and I wondered what it was. Then the huge blast broke through the windows. We did not know what to do, we were panicking. Everyone was crying. I guess I was crying, too.”
"Two pieces of glass, each about two inches long, had struck my head and my left wrist as well. There were many shattered pieces of broken glass on the soles of my feet."
“The shoe-box outside of the classroom was gone. Outside there was [broken] glass everywhere, but I went home in bare feet. My house was still standing. When I saw my mother, I felt relieved. “What happened to your face?” my mother asked. Two pieces of glass, each about two inches long, had struck my head and my left wrist as well. There were many shattered pieces of broken glass on the soles of my feet. My mother plucked every piece of glass out with a tweezer. Then I went to a clinic near my house. The rescue team had brought more severely wounded patients to the clinic. I was sent home without treatment, because I was not injured as badly.”
"But all I could do was to keep flies away using a fan and plucked maggots from her wounds."
“On August 7th and 8th, my mother and I searched for my grandmother all over the town. My grandmother had left her house in the morning of 6th and had been missing since then. On the 9th, we found my grandmother at one of the treatment facilities. She was lying on her stomach and her back was severely burned. I remember seeing a big fly on her injured back. We moved her to another facility near the house. I wanted to help her. But all I could do was to keep flies away using a fan and plucked maggots from her wounds. She died on the 12th.”
"They insinuated that my sickness from the bomb was contagious."
“When I was in third grade, I became quite ill. I developed a high fever and bloody stools. I was admitted to a hospital. I remember I was crying all night. My mother was there to take care of me. One time a woman inadvertently started a conversation with my mother and innocently commented that at least a crying girl (that was me) meant that she is still alive. That made me really sad. I came back to my school after a year of rest. All my schoolmates including my friends started to pick on me. They insinuated that my sickness from the bomb was contagious. It was really hard for me. But my mother always encouraged me to smile and keep my head up.”
“When I was 21 years old, I got married. I did not tell my husband that I was an A-bomb survivor. I was afraid of prejudice. After some time, an incident led my husband to learn about my past of Hibaku. He simply said “I thought so”.
“I started to share my Hibaku story with others about 2 years ago. Before my mother’s passing, we had discussed that importance of passing our stories to the next generation, and I began volunteering Peace Park in 2000. It still took me 13 years to start talk about my experience. Year by year, I feel stronger about sharing my story. I owe who I am today to my mother and my husband. I am not asking anyone to be a hero, but be kind to people around you. That is, I believe the first step towards peace.”
"...she saw many dead people, burned bodies and badly injured; many whose eyes had popped up, and whose skin had melted off. “Water please, water please”..."
“My mother told me that by the explosion, her hair burned, curled up and she was almost naked with most of her clothes burned off by the explosion. She rushed home to look for his brother and a sister. Their house had collapsed. She found them in the ruins and then picked me up from the shelter and ran for a hill near the neighborhood. On the way to the summit, she saw many dead people, burned bodies and badly injured; many whose eyes had popped up, and whose skin had melted off. “Water please, water please” everyone asked for water. My mother with her three young children, did not stop till the summit, as she passed the dead and the needy “I am so sorry, I am so sorry” she repeated to those in need. Looking down the city from the summit, there was nothing left, she said later. She could see fires starting in all directions already. At dusk, she came down from the hill to go into the air raid shelter. There were a lot of sick people inside the shelter. Every time one of us cried, my mother was yelled at, and had to go outside till we calmed down, before going back to the shelter.
"Within 10 days, everyone ate the sweet potatoes died with purple spots all over their bodies, and a swelled stomach. "
My father was at 1.9 km from ground zero, when he was blasted by the atomic bomb. He was working for logging company at that time. He was pulling a cart full of logs and his colleague was pushing it from behind. When the explosion occurred, my father said that he fell to the ground, and covered his eyes and ears. When he gained his consciousness, there was nothing around him. He was badly burned, and some of his skin had melted off. He found his colleague black burned dead, and blown far behind. With some help around him, he was able to fetch a stick as a cane, and made it to home, only to find out that the house was obliterated. We had already taken refuge to the hill at that time. It took a week for us to re unite at one of the air raid shelters. Around the time, food was very scarce. Everyone was hungry. One of our neighbors steamed sweet potatoes and shared them with us at the shelter. My mother did not allow us to eat them. Within 10 days, everyone ate the sweet potatoes died with purple spots all over their bodies, and a swelled stomach. There was a closed canned food factory on the other side of the city, My mother took these canned foods and fed us. This is the story my mother told me, but I had no idea a woman like my mother who had no knowledge about radiation, did not let us eat the food at that time.
After the war, we spent some time at the relative houses outside of Nagasaki, and my family returned to a small 1DK apartment in Nagasaki. Two of my brothers were born there. When I was in the 4th grade, we moved to the Shiroyama district in Nagasaki which gave us an apartment which was a bit larger. I was transferred to the 4th grade class 1 at Shiroyama elementary. It happened to be Genbaku Kyoshitsu (Atomic bombs Class). Genbaku Kyoshitsu was created by a group of teachers who lost their students to radiation sickness (mainly leukemia) years after the explosion. The Japanese government did not help the survivors. So the teachers from Nagasaki created a Genbaku Kyoshitsu where teachers actively monitored students health who enrolled in the class. Every morning, we started our day by sampling our urines in a beaker, and moved it to test tubes, which was labeled with our names. And we visited Nagasaki University Hospital for medical examinations. I had a best friend at the school. His name was Makoto Hisamatsu. He was fun, athletic, and smart, we did everything together. In September during our 4th grade (Japanese school starts in April), he was diagnosed with leukemia, and admitted to a hospital. I went to visit him at the hospital many times. But his condition quickly got worse, and he died in October. I was so young, I did not understand about radiation, and the atomic bomb that we both had been exposed to at our very early ages. I was devastated at losing my best friend.
"She had a miscarriage, then massive colon polyps were found. In 1978, she had a surgery to have an artificial anus, and died in 1979. She was 34 years old. "
My mother became very sick when I was around 10 years old. My sister who was a year younger than I, began to take domestic tasks at early age. There was no consumer electronics, nor running water. She had to fetch water from a well every morning. I remember my sister washing clothes with snow in the water with her very red hands in wintertime. My sister who I think should deserve the happiness at most, was married to a nice man in 1971. She had a miscarriage, then massive colon polyps were found. In 1978, she had a surgery to have an artificial anus, and died in 1979. She was 34 years old. Over the years, my mother had a series of sickness, and surgeries. At the end, she was diagnosed with cirrhosis. I organized many blood drives at work and grass roots campaign on streets. I thank everyone who helped out at that time. My mother died at age 54.
"One died of lung cancer, the other died of multiple cancers that popped up at the same time."
We cannot know about the atomic bomb. We cannot know about radiation. Where one was standing, whether there was an obstruction, direction of the wind blowing, many small conditions at the time of exposure can change everything. My father who had keloids from his neck through back, and both arms died at age 88. My brother and I are both Hibakusha(Survivors of the atomic bomb). I lost hearing in my left ear when I was 8 years old. My brother was puking blood clots for a week, when he was a teenager. We could not take him to hospital, because we did not have money. But we both live. 2 of my younger brothers who were born after the war died before me. One died of lung cancer, the other died of multiple cancers that popped up at the same time.
About 10 years ago, I began volunteering at the Nagasaki peace group. I started to share my story 2 years ago. I told my story to many students through the peace education program. Many sent me letters after my talk, which makes me very happy. Observing the current political climate in Japan, I am afraid that history is trying to repeat itself. My friends, my brothers, my sister died without sharing their experience. We should never repeat what happened to them.
"On the way there, black rain rained on us."
“At 8:15, there was said to be lighting PIKA, and a huge blast. All the windows shattered and part of roof came down. My house did not collapse. My mother carried me on her back to the evacuation place. On the way there, black rain rained on us.”
“Is he from Hiroshima. Why do you have to choose someone from Hiroshima to marry?”
“I knew I was exposed to radiation, because I had problems with my liver and kidney when I was young. It was not until I read “Black Rain” a book about Hiroshima Atomic bomb victims by Masuji Ibuse, that it made sense to me how my life was affected by the atomic bomb. After graduating from school, I went to Tokyo. I had a girlfriend whom I wanted to marry at that time. I was open about my past. I think she liked me very much, too. She introduced me to her parents. Then I heard her mother asking her: “Is he from Hiroshima. Why do you have to choose someone from Hiroshima to marry?” It shocked me. I had never thought how I would have been defined by the experience I did not even remember. There may have been a way for us to work things out, if we really wanted to be together. But it did not work out. After returning to Hiroshima, I got married and had children. There are no known influences on my children from the radiation. Fear is always there, but no one would say it aloud.”
"In order to qualify the medical care for the atomic bomb injuries, they need to recall events of Aug 6th. Some have become depressed and many suffer from insomnia. "
“Before retiring from my work, I never did anything [that has] to do with atomic bomb experience. I rarely attended the yearly peace ceremony except the years my parents died. I guess I may have been running away from the past. After retirement, I became involved in a lawsuit against Japanese government [seeking] to extend the recognition and care of the atomic bomb injuries. I began volunteering at the Hiroshima council of A-bomb sufferer organization. I help people to get ‘Atomic Bomb Victims record book ’. In order to qualify the medical care for the atomic bomb injuries, they need to recall events of Aug 6th. Some have become depressed and many suffer from insomnia. I don’t remember what happened to me on Aug 6th, 1945. But I am learning about [that day] from them. Atomic bomb experience is not just what happened on Aug 6th. My life from Aug 6th to this day, is my Hibaku experience.”
"We heard screams and voices pleading for help from collapsed houses. We could not do anything about it. On the riverbanks, one middle school student asked for water, he was badly burned. I did not give it to him, because we were taught not to give water to the badly burned as it would kill them. "
“I arrived at work at 8 am. I had just returned from a 2-month long field excursion in Kyushu, Japan. At 8:15, strong beam of light and explosion knocked me off to the floor. The pillar prevented me from being burned by the heat wave, but pieces of shuttered window pierced my entire body. In Japan, we often describe atomic bomb as “ PIKA (lighting) DON (blast of explosion). I remembered PIKA, but I don’t recall DON, as my hearing was temporarily gone at that time. I was bloody, but I could walk. I took stairs down with my injured colleagues and came out of the building. The building had beautiful stone entrance steps. I remembered the steps were covered with blood and bloody handprints. We retreated to a nearby Kyobashi River. We heard screams and voices pleading for help from collapsed houses. We could not do anything about it. On the riverbanks, one middle school student asked for water, he was badly burned. I did not give it to him, because we were taught not to give water to the badly burned as it would kill them. I wish I had given him water now. We did not know anything about radiation. We stayed outside and stayed in at my colleague’s house, which was a little further out from the ground zero inHiroshima.”
"I saw skeletons, dead bodies of half burned, carbonized bodies, swelled bodies whose gender you could not tell. "
“The next morning, Hiroshima had been burned to dirt. I saw skeletons, dead bodies of half burned, carbonized bodies, swelled bodies whose gender you could not tell. It was eerily quiet. I walked back to my home in Miyajima. This is when I found out that my younger sister had died.”
"All of her classmates and teachers, 228 of them died of the atomic bomb. There were said to be over 7000 students who died in Hiroshima."
“My sister had just turned 13 years old in June. She was working with her class on site as a part of Japan’s student mobilization program during WWII. She was 800 meters away from ground zero. She was badly injured by the blast. She was carried by a military truck to outside of Hiroshima for treatment. There, she was tended by a village woman. She was asking: “ Will you hold my hand?” She died holding the woman’s hand on the night of 6th. Her body was returned to us next day. Her clothes had been burned off, her body badly injured, covered with yukata [Japanese summer dress]. Strangely, her face was not injured. All of her classmates and teachers, 228 of them died of the atomic bomb. There were said to be over 7000 students who died in Hiroshima. I found my sister to be one of the lucky ones that who was carried out to the treatment center outside of the city. There are so many still missing. Losing my sister to the atomic bomb is my saddest moment in my life.”
“I started to talk about my Hibaku experience about 10 years ago. It was not because I had refused to discuss it, but it is something I did not want to recall. My experience was a norm at that time. I am 87 years old now. I don’t have much time left. In Hiroshima, we have a beautiful Hiroshima Peace Park now. I want you to know that there used to be neighborhoods there.”
(Hiroshima Peace Park is about 122100 square meters. There used to be seven densely populated neighborhoods which were all wiped out by the atomic bomb)
“Everything that had existed here disappeared on August 6, 1945. As long as I live, I will continue to have my voice alive.”
On August 9, 1945 at 11:02, Sachiko was at a mountain shack with her grandmother, mother, three younger brothers, one younger sister and two other young relatives. It was 1.3 Km away from ground zero in Nagasaki. She was 11 years old, attending fifth grade at Yamazato elementary school, which had been closed since July for summer. Sachiko was living with her large family in Uragami district, Nagasaki.
“After August 6 (Hiroshima’s atomic bombing), my father came across a flyer from U.S plane that reads “August 8th Nagasaki become ash”. My father had built a shack with two tatami mats on the mountain next to our sweet potato field. My family evacuated to the shack on August 7th and 8th. On the morning of the eighth, my mother and grandmother protested that they would not want to go to our family mountain shack since the said date of the flyer had passed. My father was upset and told them that U.S time is a day later than Japan time, and ordered us to go to the mountain shack. So we hiked up to the mountain shack again. It was not because that we were afraid of the bombing, but rather we did not want to anger my father. There were 10 of us: grandmother, mother, three younger brothers, one younger sister and two relatives. My oldest sister Fumiko made us rice balls with a lot of wheat (rice was very scarce during the war] and boiled potatoes for us.”
“I was wearing work pants, long sleeves blouse, and first-aid medical shoulder bag. It was a hot day. When we arrived at the shack, I took off all my cloths and wore only slip underwear inside the shack. I was standing on one of the tatami mat and gazing inside of my first aid kit. White-yellowish light beamed into the shack. We did not know what it was. Moments later, a big bang sound eminated from the ground we were standing on and from the far away mountain at the same time. Then darkness covered it all.”
“I don’t know how much time had passed. The darkness began to fade from above. I could not see my mother, but heard her asking: “Where is everyone, are you ok? Did you get hurt?”. When I could finally see, the shack and the sweet potato field were gone while my mother was standing in front of me. I did not have any visible injuries. My mother said that she could not see through one of her eyes, that had a bump that was swelling larger and larger by the second. My sister later told me that the shack had collapsed on her, and next thing she knew was that my mother was holding her. One of my younger brothers had a big open cut on back on his neck. It was a huge cut on his tiny neck. It was not bleeding, and I could see something white inside the cut. He must not have had pain, he was just starring at mother just like I was. Both of my cousins were badly burned on part of their bodies. They were all crying. But everyone at the shack was still alive.”
“Then we saw a small plane flying really low. We looked for places to hide, but there was none. So we covered our eyes and ears, that was what we were taught, and lay down on the ground. I slowly looked up at it, the plane was flying very low, and I could see the pilot and two American soldiers who were looking around. After the plane was gone, my grandmother scolded my brothers and cousins that we were targeted, because they were loud, and they had heard us inside the shack.”
" We could not see anything. Nagasaki was covered with a black cloud. "
“We began to worry about our home and the rest of family in Nagasaki. So we went to the edge of the mountain to look down. We could not see anything. Nagasaki was covered with a black cloud. It looked very scary. My grandmother said it was the end of the world. Looking back now, we must have looked at the mushroom cloud from above. My mother announced that she would go down and see our house in Nagasaki. And so she went. I think I should have gone, since I did not have any wounds. But I was very scared to go into the dark cloud.”
" She encountered badly burned women and children."
“My mother returned shortly afterwards. She encountered badly burned women and children. She could not recognize them, even though they said that they were from the neighborhood next to our own. They were very thirsty, my mother said. After she helped them drink some rainwater, she gave up returned to us. Everyone spent time by keeping to themselves. I sat on the path to the city, gazing at the air. It was hot from sky and ground. There was someone coming up on the path from the city. It was a man covered with dirt, ripped clothes with two triangle bandages. He used stick as a cane. As he approached, I realized that it was father. I yelled out: “Mom! It’s Dad!” We thought everyone had died, we were so happy.”
"When the A-bomb exploded, the two-story wooden office collapsed on my father."
“My father belonged to the neighborhood security watch team. He was at the office about 800 meters away from ground zero. When the A-bomb exploded, the two-story wooden office collapsed on my father. He was rescued from the ruined by strangers. The office was located in a densely populated residential area. When he was rescued, he said that all the houses in that neighborhood were destroyed, and fire had spread from house to house.
“There was a weapon factory nearby. My father looked to see if the gas tank had collapsed from the factory, because he felt very ill. Knowing nothing about atomic bomb and radiation, he concluded that his sickness was due to inhaling poison gas from the tank. He thought that he should go to the mountain where air would be cleaner. So he hiked up the mountain and found us. After my father’s arrival, two of my relatives came and they told us what happened to our house.”
"My house was later burned down and we found Fumiko’s skeleton inside.”
“Our house was located only 800 meters away from ground zero. My older sister Fumiko ( who made us riceballs and sent us off to a mountain shack) and one of my aunts were home at the time of explosion . Our house was knocked down to the ground. A neighbor rescued my aunt. My aunt was very badly burned. She looked for my sister, but she could not find her. There was a railroad behind my house and medical trains had begun to arrive shortly after the blast. My aunt decided to seek treatment for her injuries. My house was later burned down and we found Fumiko’s skeleton inside.”
"My sister told me that aunt’s hands had no skin left and her hands felt slippery. "
“My other older sister was working at the factory as a part of Japanese government’s students mobilization program. She survived the blast and followed the railroad tracks to head home. There was nothing left standing, she said. She did not know how to go home but to follow railroad tracks. When she reached where our home used to be, she united with my surviving aunt. My older sister told me that my aunt was so happy to see her. My aunt was very badly burn . She held my sister’s hand and asked her to wait for her, as she would get on the train to seek treatment for her injury and come home. My sister told me that aunt’s hands had no skin left and her hands felt slippery. My aunt died on the 11th at the hospital to where she was transported.”
“One of my brothers was in the same neighborhood-watch security team as my father. His body was later found on the rooftop of my elementary school, where there was a bell to alarm people of air raids. When we first went there, we could not carry out his body from school as the building was very badly damaged. The next morning, my other older brother and my uncle went to retrieve him but his body was gone. To this day, we don’t know what had happened to his body. I had three older brothers living with us in Nagasaki at the time, one brother died at my school whose body went missing, one older brother who survived the bomb, and other brother we don’t know what happened to him. I also lived with two aunts, one died at the hospital on 11th , while the other remained missing. My two brothers and aunt have grave stones commemorated that they died on August 9th, 1945, but we don’t have their bodies to bury.”
“On the night of August 9th, we spent the night at the mountain shack ground. Nagasaki was still burning. It was a cold night. I could not sleep. In the morning, I came down with my relatives to Nagasaki City. This was when I first saw dead bodies. I was scared. But I also wanted to see it. I glanced it for a second. It was two men wearing a factory uniforms. They did not have any visible injuries. Nagasaki was covered with ashes like it was snow. There was no road visible, we walked on ashes to the air-raid shelter. There were many skeletons in the ashes. There were so many dead bodies in the ruins. It smelled very strong. It must have been smell of bodies burning. Inside the air raid shelter, there were a lot of people. Many were badly injured and burned. The shelter was filled with cry and a horrible odor. They just lied there dying, no one got treated.”
“On 15th, we heard the end of war from a passerby at the air raid shelter. My family went to our extended relative house at Togitsu town located outside of Nagasaki. My father was getting worse and worse everyday. In Togitsu town, I went to doctor’s house everyday for father, so my father can get his shot each day. He suffered excruciating pain of high fever and diarrhea. Purple patched appeared all over his body and he lost all of his hair. He died on August 23th. Witnessing the suffering and death of my father, I felt deep sadness for the first time. Twenty one of my family members died from atomic bomb. My father was the only one who could receive proper caring before death.”
“When I attended 50th anniversary of Nagasaki atomic bomb at my elementary school, I learned that 1300 out of 1581 students of the school had died from the atomic bomb. I could not stop crying. It took me long time to start sharing my story. I began telling my story after I retired from work at the age of 62. I tell my story to many school students. One time I was asked if I had ever considered committing suicide. I was shocked to be asked such question and I cried. My answer was ‘my father saved our lives that day. I can’t take my life lightly’
“I saw many dead bodies at that time. One death that struck me the most was a dead body of a pregnant woman. Her remains was only skeleton; and I saw a baby skeleton inside her. ”I had 12 brothers and sisters. During the wartime, it was encouraged to have many children, so that they could fight in the battlefield. This was war. I would never want anyone to go through what I went through. We should never engage in war and please don’t use nuclear power. This is my message.”