Anxiety-Depressive Disorder | A Photographer’s Story
Photographer Sergei Stroitelev is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this photo essay. From the project ‘Blue Dot’. To see Sergei’s body of work,…
When It Comes | Panic Attacks
Not sure when it hits I’m calm Then earthquake comes I sit Shake Wait Shake When will it end? Sometimes goes for hours Occasionally days…
Getting Used To It
Today Had a discussion with the PA Leave in five more days New medicine seems okay Quiet in the lockup When I came in, it…
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Fire burns Anxiety churns Please Help me Escape reality Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 More On Peeling OFF Mental Illness HERE …
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Tangled in a web I try to flee from my demons I ask myself “Am I drifting into insanity?” Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…
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3AM Wake up soaking wet 4 days in a row Shivering Medication side effect Causing me to lose more weight Copyright© Edge of…
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Changing hospital gown Looking in mirror I see a skeleton Lost over 40 lbs Neck bones stick out Still eating very little Copyright© Edge…
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The circle spins Nothing helps I sit rotting away in the pit Rats nibbling at my flesh Exposing Depression Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…
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Panic attacks Would come and go I thought this was my life Until Tangled wires in the brain Short circuited Now Constant Shakes Permanently Embedded…
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Medication Time Do not be late Stand in line Same time Everyday 9 am 9 pm Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 …
My Unrecognizable Reflection
Looking into the mirror I see a face Ravaged by illness The happy go lucky attitude gone Unhappiness looks back Cannot force a smile Is…
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This is the place for rejects The scum of society Nobody going to hold your hand here Keep head down Do as told Ask for…
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Sometimes It becomes so dam hard The weight Sinks me into the ground Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 More On Peeling…
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It takes a tremendous amount of endurance to live with mental illness. Others see weakness, but they are too blind to appreciate the tenacity.…
Giving In For Better Quality Of life
He suffered 5-6 panic attacks a day For over 50 years Nervous system worn out He capitulated and went on medication Copyright©…
Displaced
For awhile I lost my place Aimless floating Above everyone Now The same old me Standing in line With everyone else Copyright© Edge of…
Locked In
This time the depression Holds me tight Like a vice Alone Again Tonight I continue to fight Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 …
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Stuck with glue Thoughts will not move What can I do? Just suffer Wait for time to pass Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021…
Unstoppable
I cry Sometimes I can flood the driest desert with my tears It feels good to cry It feels bad when I cry Why…
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I’m waiting patiently Here it is coming around again I reach out to catch No It passes me by Laughing all the way Another missed…
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My brain will not comply Trying desperately to push out thoughts Not succeeding It is a war Negative thinking again wins the battle Another awful…
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Flood gates open Anxiety sucks the happiness from me The pain pushes all my emotion buttons Medication not working I suffer alone No place…
Searching For My Place Of Happiness While Dealing With Depression
Photographer Arseniy Neskhodimov is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this photo essay. From his personal project ‘Prozac’. To see Arseniy’s body of work,…
The Mentally Ill & Society
I’m a human being Just because I’m mentally ill Does not give society the right to Abuse Humiliate Control Or Take away my dignity …
Relief. Where Is It?
I do not think I will ever feel right My nervous system is fried Each day the same Living in pain Sitting in bed Praying…
Juggling Thoughts
Today I remember yesterday One after another Thoughts Pop up Unfortunately Today I also have the reality of the struggle Controlling my depression Copyright©…
Cannot STOP
Fear Causes anxiety Anxiety Creates More Fear How do I get off This Rollercoaster? Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 Edge of…
Inertia
On a mental lockup floor 24×7 Everything based on routine Isolated from outside world No worries No responsibilities Just follow the rules Take twice a…
Mother
He does not remember much about his mother Even when at times Drifting through murky memories If he did not have a photo of her…
Aimless
Hit bottom Wearing my hospital gown Alone Nighttime Walking the halls Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020 If my poetry helped, entertained, or…
Playing With Air
Deep long breaths Inhale Exhale Desperately Trying To release air From the anxiety balloon Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 Edge of…
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I can feel the load Mind no longer guides Nervous system All circuit overloaded Psychological Trauma Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 …
Doing My Best
I try to think positive But it is difficult when Day after day Acid rain comes down Burning the smile off my face Copyright©…
Digging
Using a Jack hammer I worked Through that night Chipping away Searching for The cure Hidden In my primitive mind Copyright© Edge of Humanity…
Smother
Alone The depression beast wraps It sides around a thick dark cloud Quickly I’m overwhelmed with emotions Unable to move from my chair Paralyzed The…
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Her anxiety Always Leads Her To believe A Problem will become A Complete disaster Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020 More On Peeling…
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When was the last time you seen a rainbow? After a rain I go out searching for one In my life Everything is gray I…
The Room
my room consists of two single frame wood beds A roommate air conditioner locked windows nothing else no desk no chair dusty floor I look…
The Meeting
He walked into the room Looked at the blank wall Then Started having a conversation With an non existing person Which was just the wall…
The Turmoil Within
Most folks wake up peacefully She abruptly wakes up shaking and nauseated Sometimes dry heaving Reaching for that magical pill to calm everything down…
Enduring What Is Not There
I stand there Taking it Anxiety Picks apart my emotions Slow Deep Cuts Yes I stand there And Take it Copyright© Edge of Humanity…
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Anxiety Being afraid Of What if’s That Do not Exist Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020 If my poetry helped, entertained, or moved…
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Before I seen everything in color After All was black and white On bad days Everything is graveyard grey Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…
Navigating Through Anxiety
Likes to hide in the shadows Pokes out here and there Takes a swipe With a razor sharp sword Then Takes another swipe Until A…
Fading
Some see colorful butterflies The colors I Forgot I lost the ability to see the colors and recognize butterflies I no longer look up at…
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Childhood memories Blank Nothing written No explanations Denial Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020 If my poetry helped, entertained, or moved you, please…
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Lie in bed Sleep time Meal time Medication time Institutionalized Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020 If my poetry helped, entertained, or moved…
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Vacuuming cobwebs from brain Clean mind is a healthy mind What happens When cobwebs are the only thing left? Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…
Bipolar Disorder In The Family
Photographer Léa Thijs is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this documentary photography. From the book/project ‘Safe House’. To see Léa’s body of work,…
How Societies (Past & Present) Evoke Mental Illness To Obtain Control
Written by: Life Coach Carioca Da Gema In the race to control its citizens, past societies used the same strategies applied by individuals with…
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on my knees hands clawing into the soil dirt under fingernails frantically searching for lost pieces of my mind Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2019…
“…on the boundary between a psychosis and neurosis.” | Borderline Personality Disorder
Photographer Rita Verduyckt is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this photo essay. From the project ‘Borderline Spaces and Places’. To see Rita’s body…
Reinterpreting My Father’s Hallucinations
Photographer Glorija Lizde is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this photo essay. From the project ‘F20.5’. To see Glorija’s body of work, click…
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park bench silence a man sat next to me and said “all I have left is my mind Can you hear the chimes? that magnificent sound…
“…down with anxiety attacks…” The Eternal Euphoria & Construed Illusions – A Photographer’s Story
Independent Filmmaker and Photojournalist Ritam Talukdar is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this documentary photography. From his ongoing project ‘Forms of Mental Illness‘. To follow…
A Dead Kitten, Feces, Fresh & Rotten Food: Life In An Extreme Animal Hoarding Environment
Artist and Fine Art Photographer Dave Hebb is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this documentary photography. These images are from his project ‘The Poverty…
From Drugs & Self-Hatred To Art – A Photographer’s Story
The content of this post was submitted to Edge of Humanity Magazine by Matt Nelson a photographer and writer at The Street Dog Collective. “From…