Posts tagged ‘mental illness’

Getting Used To It

  Today Had a discussion with the PA Leave in five more days New medicine seems okay Quiet in the lockup When I came in, it…

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  Fire burns Anxiety churns Please Help me Escape reality   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021   More On Peeling OFF Mental Illness HERE  …

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  Tangled in a web  I try to flee from my demons I ask myself “Am I drifting into insanity?”   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…

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  3AM Wake up soaking wet 4 days in a row Shivering Medication side effect Causing me to lose more weight     Copyright© Edge of…

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  Changing hospital gown Looking in mirror I see a skeleton Lost over 40 lbs Neck bones stick out Still eating very little   Copyright© Edge…

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  The circle spins Nothing helps I sit rotting away in the pit Rats nibbling at my flesh Exposing Depression   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…

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  Panic attacks Would come and go I thought this was my life Until Tangled wires in the brain Short circuited Now Constant Shakes Permanently Embedded…

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  Medication Time Do not be late Stand in line Same time Everyday 9 am 9 pm     Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021  …

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  This is the place for rejects The scum of society Nobody going to hold your hand here Keep head down Do as told Ask for…

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    Days are a struggle I like sleep Time to rest Downtime Again Wake up to the struggle   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021…

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    Sometimes It becomes so dam hard The weight Sinks me into the ground   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021   More On Peeling…

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    It takes a tremendous amount of endurance to live with mental illness. Others see weakness, but they are too blind to appreciate the tenacity.…

Displaced

  For awhile I lost my place Aimless floating Above everyone Now The same old me Standing in line With everyone else   Copyright© Edge of…

Locked In

  This time the depression Holds me tight Like a vice Alone Again Tonight I continue to fight   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021  …

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  Stuck with glue Thoughts will not move What can I do? Just suffer Wait for time to pass   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021…

Unstoppable

    I cry Sometimes I can flood the driest desert with my tears It feels good to cry It feels bad when I cry Why…

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  I’m waiting patiently Here it is coming around again I reach out to catch No It passes me by Laughing all the way Another missed…

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  My brain will not comply Trying desperately to push out thoughts Not succeeding It is a war Negative thinking again wins the battle Another awful…

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    Flood gates open Anxiety sucks the happiness from me The pain pushes all my emotion buttons Medication not working I suffer alone No place…

Relief. Where Is It?

  I do not think I will ever feel right My nervous system is fried Each day the same Living in pain Sitting in bed Praying…

Juggling Thoughts

  Today I remember yesterday One after another Thoughts Pop up Unfortunately Today I also have the reality of the struggle Controlling my depression   Copyright©…

Cannot STOP

  Fear Causes anxiety Anxiety Creates More Fear How do I get off This Rollercoaster?   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021     Edge of…

Inertia

  On a mental lockup floor 24×7 Everything based on routine Isolated from outside world No worries No responsibilities Just follow the rules Take twice a…

Mother

  He does not remember much about his mother Even when at times Drifting through murky memories If he did not have a photo of her…

Aimless

  Hit bottom Wearing my hospital gown Alone Nighttime Walking the halls   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020   If my poetry helped, entertained, or…

Playing With Air

  Deep long breaths Inhale Exhale Desperately Trying To release air From the anxiety balloon   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021     Edge of…

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  I can feel the load Mind no longer guides Nervous system All circuit overloaded Psychological Trauma   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021    …

Doing My Best

  I try to think positive But it is difficult when Day after day Acid rain comes down Burning the smile off my face   Copyright©…

Digging

  Using a Jack hammer I worked Through that night Chipping away Searching for The cure Hidden In my primitive mind   Copyright© Edge of Humanity…

Smother

  Alone The depression beast wraps It sides around a thick dark cloud Quickly I’m overwhelmed with emotions Unable to move from my chair Paralyzed The…

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  Her anxiety Always Leads Her To believe A Problem will become A Complete disaster   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020   More On Peeling…

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  When was the last time you seen a rainbow? After a rain I go out searching for one In my life Everything is gray I…

The Room

  my room  consists of two single frame wood beds A roommate air conditioner locked windows nothing else no desk no chair dusty floor I look…

The Meeting

  He walked into the room Looked at the blank wall Then Started having a conversation With an non existing person Which was just the wall…

The Turmoil Within

    Most folks wake up peacefully She abruptly wakes up shaking and nauseated Sometimes dry heaving Reaching for that magical pill to calm everything down…

Enduring What Is Not There

  I stand there Taking it Anxiety Picks apart my emotions Slow Deep Cuts Yes I stand there  And Take it   Copyright© Edge of Humanity…

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  Anxiety Being afraid Of What if’s That Do not Exist   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020   If my poetry helped, entertained, or moved…

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  Before I seen everything in color After All was black and white On bad days Everything is graveyard grey   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…

Fading

  Some see colorful butterflies The colors I  Forgot  I lost the ability to see the colors and recognize butterflies I no longer look up at…

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  Childhood memories Blank Nothing written No explanations Denial   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020   If my poetry helped, entertained, or moved you, please…

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  Lie in bed Sleep time Meal time Medication time Institutionalized   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020   If my poetry helped, entertained, or moved…

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  Vacuuming cobwebs from brain Clean mind is a healthy mind What happens  When cobwebs are the only thing left?    Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…

Bipolar Disorder In The Family

  Photographer  Léa Thijs is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this documentary photography.  From the book/project  ‘Safe House’.  To see  Léa’s body of work,…

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on my knees hands clawing into the soil dirt under fingernails frantically  searching for lost pieces of my mind   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2019…

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park bench silence a man sat next to me and said “all I have left is my mind Can you hear the chimes? that magnificent sound…