When It Comes | Panic Attacks
Not sure when it hits I’m calm Then earthquake comes I sit Shake Wait Shake When will it end? Sometimes goes for hours Occasionally days…
Getting Used To It
Today Had a discussion with the PA Leave in five more days New medicine seems okay Quiet in the lockup When I came in, it…
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Fire burns Anxiety churns Please Help me Escape reality Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 More On Peeling OFF Mental Illness HERE …
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Tangled in a web I try to flee from my demons I ask myself “Am I drifting into insanity?” Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…
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3AM Wake up soaking wet 4 days in a row Shivering Medication side effect Causing me to lose more weight Copyright© Edge of…
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Changing hospital gown Looking in mirror I see a skeleton Lost over 40 lbs Neck bones stick out Still eating very little Copyright© Edge…
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The circle spins Nothing helps I sit rotting away in the pit Rats nibbling at my flesh Exposing Depression Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…
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Panic attacks Would come and go I thought this was my life Until Tangled wires in the brain Short circuited Now Constant Shakes Permanently Embedded…
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Medication Time Do not be late Stand in line Same time Everyday 9 am 9 pm Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 …
My Unrecognizable Reflection
Looking into the mirror I see a face Ravaged by illness The happy go lucky attitude gone Unhappiness looks back Cannot force a smile Is…
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This is the place for rejects The scum of society Nobody going to hold your hand here Keep head down Do as told Ask for…
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Sometimes It becomes so dam hard The weight Sinks me into the ground Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 More On Peeling…
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It takes a tremendous amount of endurance to live with mental illness. Others see weakness, but they are too blind to appreciate the tenacity.…
Giving In For Better Quality Of life
He suffered 5-6 panic attacks a day For over 50 years Nervous system worn out He capitulated and went on medication Copyright©…
Locked In
This time the depression Holds me tight Like a vice Alone Again Tonight I continue to fight Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 …
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Stuck with glue Thoughts will not move What can I do? Just suffer Wait for time to pass Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021…
Unstoppable
I cry Sometimes I can flood the driest desert with my tears It feels good to cry It feels bad when I cry Why…
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I’m waiting patiently Here it is coming around again I reach out to catch No It passes me by Laughing all the way Another missed…
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My brain will not comply Trying desperately to push out thoughts Not succeeding It is a war Negative thinking again wins the battle Another awful…
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Flood gates open Anxiety sucks the happiness from me The pain pushes all my emotion buttons Medication not working I suffer alone No place…
Searching For My Place Of Happiness While Dealing With Depression
Photographer Arseniy Neskhodimov is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this photo essay. From his personal project ‘Prozac’. To see Arseniy’s body of work,…
The Mentally Ill & Society
I’m a human being Just because I’m mentally ill Does not give society the right to Abuse Humiliate Control Or Take away my dignity …
Relief. Where Is It?
I do not think I will ever feel right My nervous system is fried Each day the same Living in pain Sitting in bed Praying…
Juggling Thoughts
Today I remember yesterday One after another Thoughts Pop up Unfortunately Today I also have the reality of the struggle Controlling my depression Copyright©…
Cannot STOP
Fear Causes anxiety Anxiety Creates More Fear How do I get off This Rollercoaster? Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 Edge of…
Inertia
On a mental lockup floor 24×7 Everything based on routine Isolated from outside world No worries No responsibilities Just follow the rules Take twice a…
Playing With Air
Deep long breaths Inhale Exhale Desperately Trying To release air From the anxiety balloon Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 Edge of…
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I can feel the load Mind no longer guides Nervous system All circuit overloaded Psychological Trauma Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021 …
Doing My Best
I try to think positive But it is difficult when Day after day Acid rain comes down Burning the smile off my face Copyright©…
Digging
Using a Jack hammer I worked Through that night Chipping away Searching for The cure Hidden In my primitive mind Copyright© Edge of Humanity…
Smother
Alone The depression beast wraps It sides around a thick dark cloud Quickly I’m overwhelmed with emotions Unable to move from my chair Paralyzed The…
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Her anxiety Always Leads Her To believe A Problem will become A Complete disaster Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020 More On Peeling…
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When was the last time you seen a rainbow? After a rain I go out searching for one In my life Everything is gray I…
Rebirth
Been a long time Rode my bicycle today Took off my shirt Sun on my back Off to the beach I went Watching the waves…
The Turmoil Within
Most folks wake up peacefully She abruptly wakes up shaking and nauseated Sometimes dry heaving Reaching for that magical pill to calm everything down…
Fading
Some see colorful butterflies The colors I Forgot I lost the ability to see the colors and recognize butterflies I no longer look up at…
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Vacuuming cobwebs from brain Clean mind is a healthy mind What happens When cobwebs are the only thing left? Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…
Anxiety & Depression Beasts
Nibbling On Asian History & Philosophy Series Source: The Zen Teaching Of Bodhidharma Translated By Red Pine ” When delusions are absent, the…
Picking Only Ripe Fruit
Nibbling On Asian History & Philosophy Series Source: Taoist Yoga Alchemy & Immortality By: LU K’UAN YU (Charles Luk) “Let all thought come…
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glass shatters on tile floor I crunch down my head into the pillow on the bed heavy cry competing with strongest rain coming down from…
Solving Riddles To Find Tranquility
Documentary Photographer Natalia Gordeeva is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this photo essay. From the ongoing project ‘SANCTUARY’. To see Natalia’s body of…
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catching butterflies warm spring morning sunny sky she began to cry Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020 If my poetry helped, entertained, or…
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running fast faster looking back FEAR right there will not disappear Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020 If my poetry helped,…
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unconcerned with yesterdays or tomorrows Birds eat drink fly sleep procreate survive Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020 If my poetry…
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sack of rocks I carry lifetime of worry Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2019 If my poetry helped, entertained, or moved…
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slippery stepping stones rats feast on happiness weeds of sadness Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2019 If my poetry helped or entertained…
Trapped
I run fast faster not fast enough nighttime dreams continue to rattle my mind Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2019 If my poetry…
Disappointment
Have you ever been disappointed? I’m not talking about losing a game to a friend, but a major drop to your knees failure. Not just…
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carrying a load floating on a cloud What is the difference? blue jay calls me another leaf falls from tree Copyright© Edge of…
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Engulfed by pain Mummified Shackled with chains All walked away Dinner plates Fall On Kitchen floor Four Locks Front & back doors Ceiling fans Covered with…
Life Is Impermanent
The weather was extremely cold. Bone chilling cold! This photo was taken near Transylvania, Romania. The road was desolate and the surrounding area was isolated. The…
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long-time regurgitate past searching cannot find a laugh Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2019 If my poetry helped or entertained you, please consider a…
Top 100 Songs Of Hermit Poet’s Music Collection | Where Do I Go From Here by Paul Williams | Thunderbolt Lightfoot Soundtrack
This is the second installment to the Hermit Poet’s series of songs I listen to when depressed. I have been a bit behind on posting depression…
Depression
Swimming in a lake The weeds strangle my body Trying to break free I’m only pulled down deeper into the opaque water Copyright© Edge…
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Colors gone All I see is grey Nothing clear I’m Engulfed In smoky haze * Find More Poetry HERE BACK TO HOME PAGE Copyright© Edge…
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Long fall Down into well Clawing Stuck in hell Waiting Hoping This will pass Calm returns To Disappear Again * Find More Poetry HERE BACK TO …
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No more swagger Covered in soot Long ago Dreams Crushed Under Elephant’s foot * Find More Poetry HERE BACK TO HOME PAGE Copyright© Edge of…
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Flashes of the blues This is all new What’s up? Holding metal cup Begging for help I can use * Find More Poetry HERE BACK…
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Morning Feeling Blue Strolled Outside Took a long view At Laughing Buddha Now alright * Find More Poetry HERE BACK TO HOME PAGE Copyright©…
DCCL- Anthony Bourdain
Dear Anthony: While on earth, you consumed with gusto, every precious nugget, that life had to offer. Thank you so much for all that you gave…
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watching hot coals searching nothing to find stopped laughing short time ago gate closed missed the last show * Find More Poetry HERE BACK TO …
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negativity in the mind haul in hooks on a line turn handle slow grind toss chum into abyss only positive thoughts control process * Find…
“…down with anxiety attacks…” The Eternal Euphoria & Construed Illusions – A Photographer’s Story
Independent Filmmaker and Photojournalist Ritam Talukdar is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this documentary photography. From his ongoing project ‘Forms of Mental Illness‘. To follow…
From Drugs & Self-Hatred To Art – A Photographer’s Story
The content of this post was submitted to Edge of Humanity Magazine by Matt Nelson a photographer and writer at The Street Dog Collective. “From…
Haiku #61
Walking to the edge Overcome with emotion She sat down and cried Back to HOME PAGE Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2015
Brothers In Arms – Dire Straits
Brothers In Arms When I’m depressed, I like to just get it over with. I sit in my old recliner. My studio is completely dark. In…
Haiku #2
The mind will play tricks Anxiety has no friends Keep the box healthy Back to HOME PAGE Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2014
Walking Away Negativity
I’m wearing an old pair of jeans and boots that are so well traveled that they are an extension of my body. It’s very cold outside,…
Piece Of Mind Is Free
Are you having a bad day? Does life got you down? Is everything so unfair and nothing seems to ever go your way? Stop complaining and…