Posts tagged ‘Depression’

Getting Used To It

  Today Had a discussion with the PA Leave in five more days New medicine seems okay Quiet in the lockup When I came in, it…

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  Fire burns Anxiety churns Please Help me Escape reality   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021   More On Peeling OFF Mental Illness HERE  …

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  Tangled in a web  I try to flee from my demons I ask myself “Am I drifting into insanity?”   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…

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  3AM Wake up soaking wet 4 days in a row Shivering Medication side effect Causing me to lose more weight     Copyright© Edge of…

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  Changing hospital gown Looking in mirror I see a skeleton Lost over 40 lbs Neck bones stick out Still eating very little   Copyright© Edge…

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  The circle spins Nothing helps I sit rotting away in the pit Rats nibbling at my flesh Exposing Depression   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…

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  Panic attacks Would come and go I thought this was my life Until Tangled wires in the brain Short circuited Now Constant Shakes Permanently Embedded…

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  Medication Time Do not be late Stand in line Same time Everyday 9 am 9 pm     Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021  …

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  This is the place for rejects The scum of society Nobody going to hold your hand here Keep head down Do as told Ask for…

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    Days are a struggle I like sleep Time to rest Downtime Again Wake up to the struggle   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021…

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    Sometimes It becomes so dam hard The weight Sinks me into the ground   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021   More On Peeling…

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    It takes a tremendous amount of endurance to live with mental illness. Others see weakness, but they are too blind to appreciate the tenacity.…

Locked In

  This time the depression Holds me tight Like a vice Alone Again Tonight I continue to fight   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021  …

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  Stuck with glue Thoughts will not move What can I do? Just suffer Wait for time to pass   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021…

Unstoppable

    I cry Sometimes I can flood the driest desert with my tears It feels good to cry It feels bad when I cry Why…

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  I’m waiting patiently Here it is coming around again I reach out to catch No It passes me by Laughing all the way Another missed…

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  My brain will not comply Trying desperately to push out thoughts Not succeeding It is a war Negative thinking again wins the battle Another awful…

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    Flood gates open Anxiety sucks the happiness from me The pain pushes all my emotion buttons Medication not working I suffer alone No place…

Relief. Where Is It?

  I do not think I will ever feel right My nervous system is fried Each day the same Living in pain Sitting in bed Praying…

Juggling Thoughts

  Today I remember yesterday One after another Thoughts Pop up Unfortunately Today I also have the reality of the struggle Controlling my depression   Copyright©…

Cannot STOP

  Fear Causes anxiety Anxiety Creates More Fear How do I get off This Rollercoaster?   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021     Edge of…

Inertia

  On a mental lockup floor 24×7 Everything based on routine Isolated from outside world No worries No responsibilities Just follow the rules Take twice a…

Playing With Air

  Deep long breaths Inhale Exhale Desperately Trying To release air From the anxiety balloon   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021     Edge of…

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  I can feel the load Mind no longer guides Nervous system All circuit overloaded Psychological Trauma   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2021    …

Doing My Best

  I try to think positive But it is difficult when Day after day Acid rain comes down Burning the smile off my face   Copyright©…

Digging

  Using a Jack hammer I worked Through that night Chipping away Searching for The cure Hidden In my primitive mind   Copyright© Edge of Humanity…

Smother

  Alone The depression beast wraps It sides around a thick dark cloud Quickly I’m overwhelmed with emotions Unable to move from my chair Paralyzed The…

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  Her anxiety Always Leads Her To believe A Problem will become A Complete disaster   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020   More On Peeling…

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  When was the last time you seen a rainbow? After a rain I go out searching for one In my life Everything is gray I…

Rebirth

  Been a long time Rode my bicycle today Took off my shirt Sun on my back Off to the beach I went Watching the waves…

The Turmoil Within

    Most folks wake up peacefully She abruptly wakes up shaking and nauseated Sometimes dry heaving Reaching for that magical pill to calm everything down…

Fading

  Some see colorful butterflies The colors I  Forgot  I lost the ability to see the colors and recognize butterflies I no longer look up at…

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  Vacuuming cobwebs from brain Clean mind is a healthy mind What happens  When cobwebs are the only thing left?    Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC…

Anxiety & Depression Beasts

  Nibbling On Asian History & Philosophy Series   Source: The Zen Teaching Of Bodhidharma Translated By Red Pine   ” When delusions are absent, the…

Picking Only Ripe Fruit

  Nibbling On Asian History & Philosophy Series   Source: Taoist Yoga Alchemy & Immortality By:  LU K’UAN YU (Charles Luk)   “Let all thought come…

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  glass shatters on tile floor I crunch  down my head into the pillow on the bed heavy cry competing with strongest rain coming down from…

Solving Riddles To Find Tranquility

  Documentary Photographer Natalia Gordeeva is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this photo essay.  From the ongoing project ‘SANCTUARY’.  To see Natalia’s body of…

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  catching butterflies warm spring morning sunny sky she began to cry   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020   If my poetry helped, entertained, or…

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  running  fast faster looking back FEAR right there will not disappear       Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020   If my poetry helped,…

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  unconcerned with yesterdays or tomorrows Birds eat drink fly sleep procreate survive       Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2020   If my poetry…

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  sack of rocks I carry lifetime of worry       Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2019   If my poetry helped, entertained, or moved…

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  slippery stepping stones rats feast on happiness weeds of sadness     Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2019   If my poetry helped or entertained…

Trapped

  I run fast faster not fast enough nighttime dreams continue to rattle my  mind    Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2019   If my poetry…

Disappointment

  Have you ever been disappointed?  I’m not talking about losing a game to a friend, but a major drop to your knees failure. Not just…

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  carrying a load floating on a cloud What is the difference? blue jay calls me another leaf falls from tree     Copyright© Edge of…

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Engulfed by pain Mummified Shackled with chains All walked away Dinner plates Fall On Kitchen floor Four Locks Front & back doors Ceiling fans Covered with…

Life Is Impermanent

The weather was extremely cold. Bone chilling cold! This photo was taken near Transylvania, Romania.  The road was desolate and the surrounding area was isolated.  The…

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long-time regurgitate past searching cannot find a laugh   Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2019   If my poetry helped or entertained you, please consider a…

Depression

  Swimming in a lake The weeds strangle my body Trying to break free I’m only pulled down deeper into the opaque water   Copyright© Edge…

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Colors gone All I see is grey Nothing clear I’m Engulfed In smoky haze  * Find More Poetry HERE   BACK TO  HOME PAGE   Copyright© Edge…

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Long fall Down into well Clawing Stuck in hell Waiting Hoping This will pass Calm returns To Disappear Again  * Find More Poetry HERE   BACK TO …

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No more swagger Covered in soot Long ago Dreams Crushed Under Elephant’s foot  * Find More Poetry HERE   BACK TO  HOME PAGE   Copyright© Edge of…

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  Flashes of the blues This is all new What’s up? Holding metal cup Begging for help I can use  * Find More Poetry HERE   BACK…

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  Morning Feeling Blue Strolled Outside Took a long view At Laughing Buddha Now alright  * Find More Poetry HERE   BACK TO  HOME PAGE   Copyright©…

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Dear Anthony: While on earth, you consumed with gusto, every precious nugget, that life had to offer. Thank you so much for all that you gave…

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watching hot coals searching nothing to find stopped laughing short time ago gate closed missed the last show    * Find More Poetry HERE   BACK TO …

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negativity in the mind haul in hooks on a line turn handle slow grind toss chum into abyss only positive thoughts control process    * Find…

Haiku #61

  Walking to the edge Overcome with emotion She sat down and cried   Back to HOME PAGE Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2015

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The mind will play tricks Anxiety has no friends Keep the box healthy Back to HOME PAGE Copyright© Edge of Humanity LLC 2014

Walking Away Negativity

I’m wearing an old pair of jeans and boots that are so well traveled that they are an extension of my body. It’s very cold outside,…

Piece Of Mind Is Free

Are you having a bad day? Does life got you down? Is everything so unfair and nothing seems to ever go your way? Stop complaining and…